Mugging.

I feel so sad that I have to mug.

Cause, mugging sucks.

Cause, microphone sucks.

Cause, I'm lazy to blog, but I want to keep it active leh.

Cause, people around me are so nice and they always always ask me out!

I can't help but go out with them, cause they're sooooooooo lovely.

& Birthday is coming, I'm so sexcited!

Presents? heh heh.

Been trying to plan out my schedule during birthday cause it's exam week two days later.

Argh, emo shit.

There's so many lovelies that I want to celebrate with.

I want you guys around y'know. :)

I will post more peakcures tomorrow okay.

- Random rants by happy girl. heh heh.

Fail prawning trip/ Manhattan fish market ♥

Monday should be a happy day, cause we're supposed to prawn.

I bet everyone was looking forward to it, but why rain?!

Went to Manhattan fish market to eat flaming prawns to allow ourselves to feel better from the failed trip. teehee.

DEPM TERM 2 ♥

Thank you people from DEPM 01/02

You guys are the best classmates ever. ♥

Best week ever.

Dear you,

Thank you for being there during the lowest times of my life.

Thank you for taking care of me when I'm sick.

Thank you for treating me like a princess all the time.

Thank you for giving in to me even the most unreasonable requests.

Thank you for understanding every single shit I do.

Thank you for supporting every stupid actions I do.

Thank you for teaching me how to play dota.

Thank you for waking me up early in the morning.

Thank you for waiting for me every time we meet.

Thank you for sending me home.

Thank you for picking me up.

Thank you for pushing me to go to school.

Thank you for accompanying me to shop.

Thank you for being with me doing all the silly stuffs.

Thank you for making me smile.

Thank you for playing for me.

Thank you for giving me advises.

Thank you for being truthful.

Thank you for making up my mind.

Thank you for fixing my stuffs.

Thank you for fulfilling my wishes.

Thank you for lending me your stuffs.

& Thank you for doing so many other stuff.

Lastly, thank you for loving me.

Although it was full of studying and lazing at home this week, it was still the best week ever for me.

I haven't felt such pure happiness for a very long time and I would like to thank you cause you made it happened.

Although I was sick the whole week, and I had to eat shitty food through out, you never fail to spice up my day to make me smile.

Even though a lot of unhappiness and conflict between me and some other people, you are there to give me advises and taught me to let go of some issues.

Those didn't affect me, because you're around.

It was nice to rest for a whole week cause I haven't have ample rest for the past few months.

Even at those hectic days, you are there to brighten up my day.

You're the best, and I really really do appreciate you.

Yours truly,

Shihan

Heart Ache

I've always understood this fact: People will/may change.

I also know that the possibility of that happening is god damn high.

I still chose to believe.

Believe that people will only change for the better.

Apparently, it isn't like that.

People change, they back stab, betray, lie and do all the nasty stuffs to achieve what they want.

When you look at those who are close to you, you don't wish to guard your heart.

But, just one careless move, they betray you right in front of you.

You don't wish to believe that it is happening.

You know that you are lying to yourself.

You gave him chance after chance.

You only end up getting yourself hurt again and again.

I want to let loose, I want to stop guarding my heart.

Will you let me do so?

Will you give me the security (guarantee) so that I can give you my heart?

I really want to give you my heart.

Tell me, how can I, when you keep breaking it.

One by one, you guys slowly breaking my heart.

Is there still anyone true around?

Are all of you wearing a mask?

Show me, the true you.

I don't want those superficial happiness.

Because it will only last for awhile.

Although the span of happiness was so short.

Looking at it being destroyed slowly, make something inside me ache.

Looking at the trust between everyone fading, it made me guard my heart.

I don't know who to trust.

I don't know who's telling tales.

I want to trust you.

But, I can't seem to apprehend you.

One moment, you seemed reliable, and the next you're a monster.

I'm the prey, that one that you make use.

Then, another you appear.

I trust you, and got made use of.

I don't want to guard my heart.

But I can't help but to do so.

To: People I care.

p.s. Stop destroying what we used to have.

- Shihan