Dream house (:

Suddenly have thoughts of how my future house, or in fact home would look like.

A penthouse, with fine furnished rooms.

& a balcony which I could gaze at stars, and enjoy the jacuzzi.

With sweet little animals,

which love each other.

A private bar, for events, parties or just for chill out.

My favorite game, which'd act like my big piggy bank!

Also a nice pool table for me to spend my time with.

Let's hope it'll come true. (:

Oh dear, what's happening to me again.

My world's coming down again, it's not anyone. It's me.

I'm the one falling.

Shit, I hate this feeling.

Will I be better tomorrow?

My head hurts, I feel like crying.

Why can't I just set my fucking priorities straight.

What's with me..

What else do I want.

Someone, tell me.

No, this is not happening..

I hate myself being like this.

I was walking along downtown east alone, with my eyes filled with tears, then when I paused and rested on the bed..

I felt my heart beating so rapidly, images that I hate, that disappoints me, that.. reminds me starts flashing randomly..

I could hear my breathing..

Mao came knocking on the door, suddenly I felt as if I put on a mask, a strong front..

I felt like screaming, I swear.

I don't know why am I acting like this.

Maybe, I'm insane.

But, I'll be out tomorrow, most probably..

Alone..

Sorry if I'm not acting like myself.

I'm tired.

Dear Diary,

Sometimes I asks myself, if I'm a spoilt brat.

If, I'm spending too much.

If, I'm being rude.

If, I'm being unreasonable....

Am I?

I enjoy staying at home than going out, playing my favorite songs.

Preparing westerns in the kitchen, and playing games with my loved ones.

That's pretty weird, or maybe I just need sometime at home..

A short break's coming..

Just approximately, a week later.

The long awaited break, ♥

But, I have to sacrifice one day of my break for school.

I dread it. ):

Time for a puff. (:

P.s. the Japanese food stall at Beach Rd hawker center, 2nd floor is superb.

Nice, traditional yet at a very affordable price. (:

Dear Diary,

am I a super lousy Valentine? ):

I've came across many girls and they actually buy their boyfriend gifts!

Okay, that's very unlike me.

For starters,

Patience is a virtue.

Complain-less boyfriend is a must.

Giving in, is a definitely.

This kind of girlfriend, is like.. a super scary monster. (Can't think of anything else to fit in the descriptions)

Anyway, I stayed at home the whole day feeling lousy and restless.

I grumbled about the bad headache, from yesterday.

& the lack of appetite.

I had only less-than-a-quarter of my food.

I hate Samsung, maybe I should write a super duper long feedback to Samsung head-quarters.

But I'm lack of one thing, and the most important one.

That damned customer service operator's name, whom actually hanged up on me!

Look at the words in italic that's her damned job, and by listening to her, she'd probably be a Malay. I'm sure that I wasn't being bitchy or mean, so why did she hang up on me?

I almost curse and swear-ed loudly.

I guess I must be feeling god damned lousy today, I don't even feel like going out.

Something off track, I've learnt that HIV virus can be spread through saliva, however 30 gallons of saliva is needed. So come on, you can french for all you like. (:

p.s I think I should start studying. ♥

Check list (:

1. Buy phone
2. Meet Benny
3. Send gram off
4. Pray
5. Transfer data
   

I've completed most of the rest! (: