"Lonely City"

Amongst billions & billions of lonely souls, I met you.

Perhaps it is predetermined that we would meet, in that situation.

I'd never forget the day, the day I saw you.

Just like a little boy, whom I'd never gave thought of being so in love with.

Is this love?

This deviant feeling within me, I've never felt this before.

Perhaps more of a companion, or a pillar that I depend on.

I held so tightly, yet I feel unjust.

Unjust for you.

Sometimes I thought that what'd you do without me?

It is just a tangible proof of my arrogance.

Instead, it'd be "what'd I be without you?"

I'm just a lonely soul, who covet for a companion.

With love, or without.

It's the aftermath of those misunderstandings and grief.

Those mistrusts that pile up one by one.

I can't find the true me.

All those conspiracy, I don't know who I am.

Am I true to you?

You've given me so much, but yet what can I give you?

Love that is not true, or happiness that was plotted.

In the lonely city, lies a lonely soul.

Waiting to be given warmth to be given a chance to identify herself..

I just watched the show which is casted on Channel U, Star for a cause

& I was really touched, but I couldn't help but to feel helpless towards these people living in the Third World Countries.

We should really do our part, to help our fellow friends in different part of the world.

I wish to volunteer there..

Perhaps a few years later :)

I am feeling so bitchy today.

Perhaps it's because of all the medication :(

Or perhaps, it's because of the never ending workloads.

"I was died when you left me." Holy fuck, primary school english?

& why die when somebody leaves you?

I'm feeling so damned drowsy, everyday.

I wake up in the middle of the night, every one hour.

It is really killing me.

Fuck that cough.

I want to party. :(

I want to have fun!

"Being over confident may destroy you."

I never thought that I was like that in your eyes.

Perhaps it really cleared some things.

Thank you for being truthful, & thank you for walking away.

I've got my own life too, let's not put on a front and pretend that nothing bother.

It used to, but no longer. :)