Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Messed up.

Dear Diary,

I've messed things up.
So fucking messed up that I don't even know what to do.
All the plans that I had, are all gone.
I'm struggling with school.
Thinking of my girlfriend.
Missing my boyfriend.

Actually, my life is so complete now.
I've got everything.
But why do I feel so messed up still?

Lazy to work for my only source of income.
Getting barely enough sleep for school.
Struggling..
Struggling hard.

Fuck shit.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Plain Jane I

Jane was a plain girl who is rather plump and dark.
She has center parting hair and wears a thick framed spectacles.
She was a nobody.
In school, nobody really likes her, even her cliques.
She was rated 1/10 for looks and personality.
She didn't had anyone to teach her to dress, to present herself and even basic social etiquettes.
Jane often come to a empty house straight from school and the only place that she finds her confidence is the virtual world (online).


Running into her room, ditched her school bag in a corner and logs into her facebook and chat rooms.
Because she could only find her true friends in facebook and chat rooms.
Friends they doesn't see her in a different light and gave her the attention she needed.


There were even some cute boys who came talking to her for days.
She knew quite a number of boys online and got them crazy over her.
However, when they asked to meet her out, she rejected all of their offers.
Slowly, even the attentions she got from online was decreasing.


One day, lucky boy Ben asked Jane out.
She thought that if she continues rejecting offers, sooner or later no boys will speak to her and she'd even lose the friends she gets from the virtual world.
She agreed to the offer and met Ben at his house after him explaining how sick he was and further confirmation that his parents would be around.


Naive little Jane, who ate the bait once she got the chance.
She reached his house and realized that there wasn't even soul except for them two.
Ben was really skinny and tall, with a ugly spectacles on.
His hair was tousled (in a very ugly manner) and his teeth was yellow due to the cigarettes that he puffed for years.


He reached her, and explained that his mother would be back very soon.
Jane made herself comfortable although Ben was like a very disturbing monster.
Then she thought to herself, who am I to be fussy? I should be glad that he did not chase me away.


And soon enough, she got real comfortable and yes she got fucked.
It was her first time and the experience was not at the least "magical" or "finger licking good" like what they always say in the movies.


Ben asked if she was willing to be his girlfriend.
Of course Jane agreed readily. She was finally in love!
She has got someone to care and love her.


In the subsequent days, Ben asked poor Jane over for sexual intercourse over and over again.
Until the day when Jane realized that she had missed her period for a week.
She got real scared and the only one she could talk to was Ben.
Ben was her boyfriend, of course he would have the solution and would stand by her no matter what.


She called Ben and explained to him, telling him that she would visit him right after her school.
Jane took a cab over, and literally ran right upstairs to his apartment.
She tried calling Ben to open the door but to no avail.
She thought that he might be away from his phone so she tried the door bell but to no avail either.


Poor Jane realized that he was just fooling around and she cried so hard that the neighbors came out to see what was happening.
That was Jane's first lesson learnt.
Ben was a complete bastard.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Contest!

Dear Diary,

I'm so glad to came across this contest that is featured on Nuffnang.com.sg!
We will get a chance to win the latest Apple ipad and other attractive prizes!
The contest is called the Post-it® “How You Use It”.
Here are the simple procedure to follow to win yourself an apple ipad and other attractive prizes!
  1. Take a picture or a video of how you use your Post-it® Super Sticky Notes.
  2. Go to http://www.howyouuseit.com.sg/contests to submit your video or picture. But first, you gotta register as a member.
  3. You simply stand a chance to win an Apple iPad, Nintendo Wii or iTouch!
It is that simple!
Hurry! Send in your picture/video now!

Love,
Cole

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Old Love.


The number of couples divorcing in Singapore is increasing rapidly.
However, these couples who divorced, had choices.
They chose their other halves, but after decades of marriage, they still decided to end it.
Think of our grandparents.
I'm not saying that all of them are blissfully married, but most of them are.
They stick to their partners for life, even when some of them are not married willingly.
They hold on to their oath, "Until death do us part."
They care about their partners, until the day they pass.
Although my grandfather had passed away years ago, my grandmother still visits him.
During the Lunar New Year, birthday and every minor and major festivals.
At his deathbed, he was unwilling to go because he's worried.
Worried that if he's gone, nobody would take good care of his partner, the love of his life..
Until my mother promised to take good care of her.
Even until his last breathe, he worries for her, he still love her so deeply.
And all these, the evidence of love, the unplanned love.
They hold on so tightly.

Boyfriends or husbands nowadays, half of them are not willing to carry the purse of their loved ones.
It is not spoiling the ladies, but all these little actions, are the evidence of love.
The small touch and action that you guys are not willing to give just because you hold your ego so high.
While the girls gets fussy on her boy's work, family, salary, personality, etc.
We should really learn from them, our grand daddy and mummys.
The promise to love.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Over..

I don't want it to be over.
I loved you just so much..
But I can't tolerate it anymore..
We don't even have anything in common, and the only time where we communicate the most is when we're fighting.
You don't even have a resemblance of the man I loved from the start.
You feel like a stranger.
All the things you said from the start doesn't apply to me or the relationship anymore..
I'm god damned sick and tired..
How many more times must we have?
I don't know..
Somehow, I hope that this would be the last.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

baking recipe!

Time line: Prep: 20 mins/ Cook: 15 mins/ Makes:30
Ingredients: 250g self raising flour, 90g dry, shredded coconut, 200g caster sugar, 200g melted butter, approx 60ml milk, half cup fruit jam of choice.

1. Preheat oven at 180 degree celsius. Meanwhile, combine flour, coconut and sugar in a large bowl. Stir in butter and milk. Stir well.

2. Roll level tsp of mixture into balls. Place about 8 cm apart on greased oven trays.

3. Using a floured handle of a wooden spoon, press a hollow in each ball about 1 cm deep and 1.5 cm wide. Drop half tsp jam into each biscuit hollow.

4. Bake in the oven for about fifteen minutes or until lightly browned. Top centers of biscuits with a little jam, if necessary. Cool biscuits on tray.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

There are always undone stuffs!

I realized that I haven't been reading for the past few days, not even before bed time.
how bad and undisciplined can I get?
I have plenty of time but it just seemed like it's never enough.

List of undone stuffs:
• Medical check up
• Retrieve SingPass
• Exercising 3 times a week (advised by my physician, but hello! Crazy?!)
• Shopping for my new bag
• Booking of appointment for facial treatments
• Sending in of resumes to various companies
• Applying for dbs black card
• Upload a massive lots of photos

Never ending shit lot of work.
But going out with my sweetheart and yuen yuen (nick that I gave) was real fun.
Simply, I felt that I could be myself.
Love them.

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