Almost forgotten about this space.
Past six months was another turning point for me.
I haven't been alone for so long, lost a lot of people around me.
Be it intentionally or unintentionally.
Now that I have a clear mind of what I want, I see more clearly.
I don't wish to have anything to pull me down and everyday I hope to do something new, to learn something.
Faced a lot of setbacks, came across the ugliest characters, I've failed my judgement so many times just to experience the harsh truths about this world.
I'm convinced, I'm not really that good, neither am I special in a way that I don't have to work my way up.
Whatever that I've achieved till date, it's not good enough.
Constantly telling myself to push past limits, cutting people loose, I guess I did gain something out of it, but I too lost some precious parts of myself.
Next 6 months will be a fulfilling period of my life, I promise.
It has to be.
In order to attain something in life, there's so much that we have to compromise.
I am independent but yet I'm not used to being alone, I don't wish to get used to it.
Loneliness is a real pain in the ass, but I'm glad that I can survive my own.
I want to have a companion who share the same interests, similar mindsets and big dreams.
He don't necessary have to be my partner, a friend, just someone close by that I could fall back on sometimes.
Going for dinner, running personal errands together, talk about anything that comes, exploring new places, taking pictures of me smiling and appreciates me.
This is all I ask for, yet it's so hard to find.
I guess people like me are too busy running towards their dreams, unlike me still stuck in this situation, trying to make something out of nothing.
I need to buck up, two more months, and my world will be like theirs.
Stop cutting yourself slack, you had enough rest since the last breakdown.
Be strong, be Aphrodite.
Xoxo
